Darling Anonymity by Matthew Milia

I no longer know your name
But I can't forget every single time you came around
Every time you came around for me
You came down on me so hard

I will never be the same
April spits a frigid flame
Of boiling memory
The neighborhood for me
Is black and perfuming
Lilacs fracturing in the yard

Now you don't mean shit to me
It isn't how it should be
Darling
But I didn't refuse you
No, I didn't choose to
Stick my nose in every single opening that's powdering

But the place where the ice glare
Tasted the sharp air
Of the open water on the lake
As it breaks
Oh the spring night
Oh the sting might wake me up to see
Your initials on the sacrificial version
Of me

Darling anonymity
You're planning alarming schemes
It's startling when you teethe on the cartilage
Of my ear and knee

What's the last thing that you said?
Will somebody find you dead
Inside my TV screen?
Grassier and green
The smell of gasoline
The summer's perfume keen
And so dense

I am always panting for
The smell decanting on your floor
The kidney and the spleen
The bladder filtered clean
The purity I mean
The prettiness
The preen
You, in a sense

Now you don't mean shit to me
It isn't how it should be
Darling
But I didn't refuse you
No, I didn't choose to
Stick my nose in every single opening that's blossoming

But that place where the ice glare
Tasted the sharp air
Of the open water on the lake
As it breaks
Oh the spring night
Oh the sting might wake me up to see
Your initials on the sacrificial version
Of me

Darling anonymity
You're planning alarming schemes
It's startling when you teethe on the cartilage
Of my ear and knee
It's harming the summers I have left
It's squirming
It's making such a mess
My heart is at the broken Dairy Queen
Where our kiss is melting with the rest

Appears on Sitcom Afterlife